realize that path's not made of gold, don't disguise the nature of your soul

man sometimes, sometimes i just want to quit everything and start over fresh and i'm not meaning to sound too depressed but every once and a while my mind takes on this defeatist kind of attitude. i've never succumbed and actually taken any drastic measures, and i'm not talking about suicide but just quitting things like work or extracurricular activities. i try telling this to casey but of course he just started wigging out about the band and was like "what? are you going to quit, are you quitting the band, because let me know now before i buy anymore shit!" and i'm all "dude, i'm just trying to talk to you as a friend, i'm not quitting the band" and it really makes me miss my oldest, dearest friends who are so far away like limey, brahburns, and pez. well pez is coming back but i still won't see her as much. she would say that this little diatribe is further proof that i am indeed bi-polar and this is my depressive stage. i don't know, perhaps alcohol has something to do with it. this is my alcohol-free month so maybe i'm going through mental withdrawals or something. we'll see by the end of the week because my body should be detox'ed by then from monday's binge.

this weather is certainly helping things, although i think there's a chance of snow on friday.